According to the StrengsQuest quiz, responsibility is my top strength. This makes sense, since I am an oldest child. I consider my self a responsible person and take jobs and duties seriously. I also am quick to blame myself when things go wrong. Deep down, I may know it was directly someone else's fault, but I'm quick to apologize because I can see how I could have prevented the problem.
In the situations with which I am involved, I like to be in charge. "Being in charge" brings high levels of control and responsibility, which is good. I don't like getting involved with things that are going to tie my hands and leave me at the mercy of someone else.
About now, you're probably thinking: Will, I really don't care about your thought processes or that you're a control freak. Get the point!
The point is this: Because I like to be in charge, I find it difficult, sometimes, to trust God. I feel uncomfortable with situations that I can't control. I mean it sounds great to say, "Well, I'm just trusting the Lord on this one..." But in the end, I feel so irresponsible and immature. I think, I'm an adult and can take care of myself! What am I doing? The reason for this is that I don't want to give up "being in charge." Not being in control means that I am left with nothing. The only thing to cling to is Christ. There's no "standing alone because I can" because, quite frankly, I can't.
Recently, I have been finding myself in more and more situations where unhindered faith and trust in God is absolutely necessary. In those situations, I tend to realize that trusting God is actually the most mature and responsible decision possible.
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